for my whole life i have been pushed, in one direction or another, you must do this, you will do that, you will not do this and that. and for my whole life ive been forced into living choices about my future that werent my choice. and now thanks to one very special person i dont have to life that life anymore.

the one thing ive always dreamed of is to be happy, to have a normal job, to meet someone, move somewhere nice, get married one day and one day inthe furture have kids and have a family and have a nice life.

i am living my dream now, im happy, ive moved out and i have met the love of my life <3

i hope i can live in my dream world for the rest of my life

got my head up in the clouds

Tom has gone offshore again. He left this week. I am in our house on my own, all the time in the world to think. 

That is what i dont like about him being away, when i start to think, i dont stop. I notice everything, im a slightly observant person and i hate it, because it means i know stuff he doesnt think im aware of and when i dont get told it makes me feel like im not trusted or like he doesnt want me to know, and then i start assuming things and things start going wrong. Not being told something and finding out anyway to me is the same as being lied to. it kinda sucks.

i really hate being me. wish i could just switch my brain off and be done with it and get on with things… argh! i know its his job but i cannot get used to him being away. i really wish i could. I feel like such a bitch everytime i ask him something out of interest and suddenly he freaks out, or i freak out for no reason what so ever and oh…

i need to sort out what it is im thinking…

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Valletta Twilight 8 by Micko-vic

Raspberry and White Chocolate Sponge Cake

This is a moist raspberry sponge with a white chocolate shell. Made using a basic victoria sponge recipe with added raspberries. Made to be a small bite size cake :)

This made up based on one of the Starbucks cakes we had a few weeks ago. Adapted slightly to make it a bit more interesting.

Ingredients:

-8oz castor sugar

-8oz margerine or butter (i use stalk :) )

-4 eggs

-8oz self raising flour

-5 or 6oz fresh raspberries

-a 200g bar of white chocolate

You will need:

-an oven :)

-a 10inch cake tin (i use silcone cake tins, i find they cook the cake better and retain the moisture)

How to make:

Pre heat your oven at 180 degrees.

Find yourself a fair sized mixing bowl, to it add the butter/marge and castor sugar. Cream the butter and the sugar together, again i use a silicone spatula because it is more flexable and can get all the bits at the borrom of the bowl. The butter and the sugar should be a light creamy consistancy.

Beat your eggs in a cup and beat into the mixture bit by bit. Blend the raspberries in an electric blender for about 20seconds, or alternatively just much them in a bowl with a fork. Fold the raspberries into the mixture and mix well. You should have a pink mixture.

Fold in the flour bit by bit. Make sure there is not lumps of flour. Line the cake tin with baking paper and butter. Pour your mixture into the tin and stick it in the oven for about 25 to 30 minutes. Turn the cake in the oven about half way through to make sure it cooks evenly.

Once your cake is out of the oven leave it to cool on a rack.

When the cake has cooled, cut it into small squares of about 5cm. Melt all but one strip of the white chocolate in a bowl and using a palett knife spread the melted chocolate evenly around the cake and leave to set.

For decoration grate the remaining white chocolate and place on top of the cakes. :)

Lily ^_^

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This photo was taken by an Expedition Three crew member onboard the International Space Station on Sept. 11, 2001. They were at an altitude of about 250 miles.

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niels.breve

Have not posted in a while… been a tad busy

did not have the internets for a little while.

just over 3weeks ago i moved in with my boyfriend tom, we have moved into a very nice townhouse on the outer part of great yarmouth, it massive! i am absolutly loving living with tom, he is amazing, he does everything while im at work. :)

im still working in fakenham though, which i s a 100mile round trip every day i work. not good. not entirely sure how i am still alive, driving that far and me dont really mix well in the mornings…

looking forward to the rest of my life with tom :) im so lucky to have met someone so wonderful

will start posting more often. maybe even start blogging our foods :)

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Nailed It by Haasbroek